Irregular-ish Monday

It was a bit topsy-turvy today. 
   Yesterday (Sunday) Mom was all out of sorts...she didn't want to wake up, or get up, except that she had to 'go'.   She really didn't want to eat or get dressed at all, either. She wept and winced all the way to the potty, she was in that much pain.  I gave her her morning pain pill and some liquid morphine to get to the pain quickly. 
   I called Bill about 8:30am to tell him that I was keeping her home from meeting, and why. He is always so kind to me, and never questions these judgement calls.
   I propped Mom up in bed, gave her some hot tea, some fruit and yogurt, did her testings, (her sugar was decent) watched her swallow her pills, and got her as comfortable as I could.
   I made it to the B of B, and then left during the conference letter reading.  She wanted only soup for lunch so I heated up some pumpkin and squash bisque, and I added some left over croutons, which makes her happy.  She had string cheese, cocoa and toast for supper.  Not much.  We both went to bed early.

   Her nurse Cathy came this morning when she was still in bed.  We refilled her medications, she took her blood pressure, listened to her heart & lungs, and discussed with me her poor appetite, her sleepfull-ness, her growing confusion & cognitive loss, the evident decline.  She knows about the chronic UTI situation, and saw the specimen cup that I have set out to remind me to get a sample tomorrow morning.  I'll drop it off on my way to work.  I always get a urine specimen to the lab a week before any appointment so we can see if the antibiotic is working or if we need to switch.  Cathy doesn't want me to plan on getting her out to the urologist next Monday.  They (hospice) really help me to face facts; what's the point in adding the stress and bother of an outing when the Dr. can call in a prescription if there is any issue.  I told Cathy that it was really because Dr. Kim went to Penn, and that often we go out to Rodofo's for soup afterwards.  Oh well.
    Her aide will be coming after 2:30 today.  A substitute.  When she asked me if she could bring a student, I hesitated.  One new person at a time.  Especially if she is bare-naked, thankyouverymuch. 
   Mom is up and in her chair now, watching a cooking program.  I will get her back to bed after her bath.  She will sleep until suppertime. 

   "Thou hast made me what I am
and given me what I have.
In Thee I live and move, and have my being.
Thy providence has set the bounds of my habitation,
and wisely administers all my affairs.

   Let me be numbered with Thy holy ones,
resemble them in character and condition, sit with them at Jesus' feet.
Until I finish my course with joy may I pursue it with diligence,
in every part display the resources of the christian,
and adorn the doctrine of thee, my God in all things."